275. The Blessings of Confusion

Confusion got a bad rep over the past trillion years or so.

Not that it ever changed in being ever-changing. It's just that people got more and more in the habit of demanding peace and order.

To many, even if it meant being dead for a while, anything appeared to be better than a whirlpool of disorder.

Now where and when the gusto for playing, this enchanting enjoyment for creating order out of disorder, has been lost, is hard to track down.

The best bet would be that a lot of people gradually lost their ability to confront chaos and disorder because of
their inability or laziness in letting go of old solutions that worked once fine but that don't apply anymore now.

Nowadays, and since quite a while really, many leaders, spiritual and political alike, promote 'peace and order' for the sake of 'peace and order'.

But they do this with a little twist: instead of advancing the people's inner ability to confront and tolerate disorder, a necessary and irreplacable requirement for achieving transcendent states of mind, these 'leaders' are selling the solution of quieting down the environment altogether.

This now is upside-down, of course, and the results are lower levels of confront and tolerance, a degradation of the Being's ability to play games and to enjoy doing so.

In short, what they're really doing is short-changing their followers big-time.

Instead of higher levels of responsibility for the neighborhood, a curfew is being called for for all.

Instead of trusting that people read the warnings on the  packaging, the product is outlawed altogether.

For many people this is just as well: they're already voluntary slaves, indulging in their fake feelings of peace
on the way to their graves, all the way complaining about the injustices in this world.

Yet, without confusion, there is no discovery, no progress.

It is this the foremost ability of the researcher and scientist: to dive into a confusion of contradicting data before the new insight is being born.

It is this the joy of the child: putting a puzzle back together.

It is this the gratification of a the human being as such: evolving order out of chaos.

From this angle, confusion is not the nightmare that one would expect: it is the necessary starting point without which no game could ever happen. It is thus one of the most vital phenomena in life as such.

The non-confront and lack of tolerance of confusion is a dwindling spiral: once started it propels itself towards
the denigration and annihilation of a Being itself.

It is gladly fueled by the masterminds of politics: by throwing confusion towards the masses, people will eagerly
pick up any offered pseudo-solution, even if the fineprint says the price is freedom.

Totalitarian governments therefore hate anything and anybody who works towards a truly higher level of tolerance and ability to face confusion in whatever form.

Order and chaos are not mutually exclusive: wherever there is order, there is still a degree of randomness.

On the molecular level, there is still Brown's motion and the whizzing around of ultra-small particles.
Within any chaos, there is still an order, as mathematics demonstrates in its findings on fractal geometries and strange attractors.

Now, a yardstick of true freedom of a Being could consist of the amount of confusion that a Being can tolerate before it caves in and starts grabbing any kind of anchors, whether they are artificial, fake, or genuine.

What kind of process could be run to determine, and possibly increase, this amount of confusion?

Asking: "What amount of confusion can you tolerate?" can blow off considerable charge and recover a lot of life units in a short time. However, it can also stir up vast areas of unconfronted events within just a few passes.

The balancing of such a process leg is also quite difficult. The opposite of confusion appears at first to be 'order'.

But 'order' in its extreme means enslavery, suppression,  restriction of motion. Thus, "what amount of order can you tolerate" is equally precarious as the first leg.

A better balance would be created by rehabilitating the havingness of 'safe space'.

For example: [confusion/safe space/order/safe space] could form an interesting rundown but it would require having already some repair tools handy for the case that things would go awry.

As mentioned, a Being grasps for any straw that offers stability when it becomes overwhelmed by too much randomness.

But it is liable to hold on to that straw even when the danger is long gone.

Recalling and reexperiencing the exact moment of grabbing such straws (some call them 'stable data') is another way of accessing states of confusion. It also cleans out a lot of arbitrary thoughts and even entire belief systems that have been built on a state of confusion.

Much more could and should be done in this vital area and the work should encompass physical, mental, and spiritual aspects each in their own right.

Ultimately, transcending this Universe is not possible without  this faculty of tolerance of confusion: the abyss that separates this Universe from whatever is beyond has as outposts areas of utter and total confusion.

This confusion cannot be bypassed: one must first be able to tolerate it before one can step beyond.

Copyleft © 2000  by Maximilian J. Sandor, Ph.D.